I Don’t Know Much

“For I know that the LORD is great, and that our Lord is above all gods.”
(Psalm 135:5)

There are times in the ministry when I realize just how ill-equipped and limited I am for this calling.

I don’t know why tragedy has to touch the lives of the innocent.

I don’t know why cancer has to ravage and destroy.

I don’t know why we’d rather listen to half-truths and full out lies rather than walk in the light.

I don’t know why I stop relying on the Spirit of God when I’ve proven beyond doubt my utter inability.

I don’t know why the evil seem to prosper and the righteous are trampled, but it happens all the time.

I don’t know why my rebel heart (and maybe yours too) is so prone to leave the God who loves me so much, to wander off to enjoy momentary and fleeting pleasures, rather than delighting in eternal joy.

I don’t know why I return to my sins when I see the suffering and pain they caused my Savior.

I don’t know why I become complacent when I am daily confronted with the majestic glory of the Almighty.

I don’t know much.

But this I know.  Our God is great!  Our God is faithful!  Our God is majestic and glorious!  Our God is stronger than any conflict, bigger than any obstacle, wiser than any problem, closer than any trouble.  Our God can heal any disease, redeem every situation, sanctify any sinner.  There is nothing beyond His power, nothing out of His reach, nothing He has not already seen, nothing He cannot handle.

I don’t know much, but what I know is enough to shine the light into every darkened corner.  It is enough to give hope to every weary sinner.  It is enough to strengthen the fainthearted and support the weak.

I don’t know much, but I know that God’s grace is sufficient, and his power is made perfect in weakness.  “Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weakness, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me” (1 Cor 12:9).

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My heart is not lifted up…

“O Lord, my heart is not lifted up; my eyes are not raised too high;
I do not occupy myself with things too great and marvelous for me.”
(Psalm 131:1 ESV)

We don’t know the occasion that prompted the writing of the 131st Psalm, but I think we all have been there before.  Just three verses long, this is one of the most heartfelt, humble, and sincere Psalms in Scripture.  It is one of the Songs of Ascent (Psalm 120 – 134) which were used by faithful worshippers ascending Mt. Zion to worship at the Temple.  Ultimately, it is a song of humble trust in the Lord, but it’s how we get there that’s important.

This week has been a tough week for some.  Some have had injuries.  Some have been sick.  Some have had their marriage fall apart around them.  Some have lost loved ones and friends.  Some have had life-changing, hope-shattering news.  Some have been wrestling with an important decision for weeks and months and are still no closer to a conclusion.  Some are dreading tomorrow and the uncertainty it brings.  Some have been wrestling with sin and disobedience in their own lives they just don’t see how God could continue to use them let alone love them.

That’s when this Psalm speaks to us.  “O Lord, my heart is not lifted up; my eyes are not too high.”  Commentators suggest that this refers to the humble heart that is not lifted up in pride, and that very well may be the case.  But I hear it speaking also to the humble heart that is too overcome with pain to be lifted up.  It’s almost as if David is saying, “God, the joy of my salvation has been so assaulted by the crisis of this situation that it is impossible for me to raise up my eyes to you, to lift my heart in praise.”  Maybe this was part of David’s prayer when his first child with Bathsheba died; perhaps he prayed this when his own sons rebelled against him.  We don’t know the occasion, but we know the feeling.

“But I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with its mother;
like a weaned child is my soul within me”
(Psalm 131:2).

David, here, teaches us that it is important, when our souls are overwhelmed, to quiet ourselves and trust in the Lord.  When we read this verse, it is easy to overlook that word “weaned,” and simply picture a young child being comforted in the arms of his mother.  A beautiful and comforting picture, indeed; but not what the Psalm is saying.  James Boyce writes:

When David says that his soul is “like a weaned child,” he is not saying that he has always been content with God or even merely that he is content with God now.  He is reflecting on the difficult weaning process in which a child is broken of its dependence on its mother’s milk and is taught to take other foods instead.  Weaning is usually accompanied by resistance and struggle on the child’s part, even by hot tears, angry accusing glances, and fierce temper tantrums, and it is difficult for the mother.  But weaning is necessary if the child is to mature.  David is saying that he has come through the weaning process and has learned to trust God to care for him and provide for him, not on David’s terms but on God’s terms.  (Boyce, James.  Psalms: An Expository Commentary (Vol. 3) (Grand Rapids: Baker Books, 1998).  1150.)

“O Israel, hope in the Lord from this time forth and forevermore” (Psalm 131:3).

Whatever the crisis that David faced, when he “calmed and quieted his soul,” he could return to hope in the Lord.  Knowing that “God loved him and would care for him even if it was not exactly the way he anticipated or most wanted, he came to love God for God himself” (Boyce).  Rather than loving the gifts that God has given, rather than merely believing in God, David calls us back to loving God himself, believing God – taking Him at His word.

Whatever you may be facing when you read this, if your heart is downcast, calm and quiet your soul, putting your hope in the Lord, for He is faithful and good.  Only God is worthy of your hope and trust.  Only God will never let you down.  He cares for you, and will provide for you, even in ways you cannot possibly hope for or imagine.  As the companion Psalm 130 says in its conclusion,

O Israel, hope in the Lord!
For with the Lord there is steadfast love,
and with him is plentiful redemption.
And he will redeem Israel
from all his iniquities.
  (Psalm 130:7-8)

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